The Chrysalis

The journey forward!

As I sit here again writing this post I am in a space of overthinking about what to write and how it will come across to the eyes of those that read this. Mainly because I still feel like a rookie writer. I’ve been an overthinker for most of my life. Much of it stems from my upbringing and being taught too often to care what other people think. Now in my mid-40s, I’ve reached the point of realizing that it is not important what others think of you but really how you see yourself. There’s great liberation in walking in your authenticity.

I’m here to tell you that this space is about the transformative process of coming into your authenticity. We’ve been hearing and seeing this word a great deal over the last few years; to some, it’s becoming cliché. I believe transformation is not a one-and-done process but it happens continually as we awaken and discover more about ourselves. For myself, I remain a student navigating life’s waters.

In this experience, I’m learning that the way I have seen things for many years conditioned so much of how I navigated the world and people. When we understand that the conditioning we receive plays a major role in how we see ourselves and prevents us from being our authentic selves. I don’t wish to live in that energy any longer.

In the last few years of my new journey, I’ve wrestled so much with guilt and shame for choosing myself. I finally had a moment sometime back where I told that voice with that narrative in my head to shut the f**k up and let that s**t go! I conformed and went along with everything I was taught in my upbringing and took it into my adult life allowing it to shape so much. Much of who I was and what I enjoyed was clouded and seemed unreachable. I lived on the expectations of other people and it was exhausting!

I hope that as I share the lost parts of myself in this and other future writings it shows vulnerability and strength in learning and living as authentically as possible. I don’t regret the parts of my journey that I experienced growing up or into my adulthood. There are parts of my life in the area of spirituality that I still put into practice today. More on that in the future.

I hope whoever reads this will accompany me as I write about the lost parts of myself and the new discoveries I learn in moving forward.

Thank you for being here!